Saturday, August 28, 2010

A busy life

Looking at Mirabel, you wouldn't guess that something was/is wrong. She even had the nurses fooled with her smiles and grins. But 2 days ago, things started looking a little her diaper. Streaks of red were appearing in every single diaper. Worried, I called the doctor and explained to her that Mirabel had recently taken antibiotics, and I was concerned that the meds might be the culprit. So we went in and the doctor, upon examining her and feeling her belly, was convinced it was related to a milk protein allergy. So I went off cow's milk about 2 days ago. The doctor said goat's milk was ok, so I replaced cow's milk with goat's milk.

Yesterday was fine, no blood streaks in her BM. Then I started noticing flecks/streaks of red again today, followed by a small clot in her post-lunch diaper. That, on top of the fact that she was producing dirty diapers after every single feeding, had me very concerned. So we went to Children's Hospital Boston; I wanted an answer right away.

We just got back. The children's hospital doc said the same thing. I brought up the antibiotic thing, and that I was concerned Mirabel might have C.Diff from taking Amox., but the doctor examined the soiled diaper and said it looked like a textbook case of milk protein allergy. She said that since Mirabel has no other symptoms, and that she's in the age group when food allergies become an issue, she's convinced Mirabel has a milk protein allergy. The doc also said that Mirabel could outgrow this, but she might also have a stronger allergy to milk protein that she doesn't outgrow. She also mentioned that Mirabel might've already been developing it and that the antibiotic just made it show up faster because of the change in gut bacteria. Time will tell. For now, I'm just supposed to be on diaper watch...which I definitely will be.

We were taking a walk at a nearby park when I stopped to change her diaper; that's when I saw the clot. I immediately started to freak out. In my mind I imagined all these horrible things, including losing her. Then I realized that the worst kind of suffering isn't our own physical suffering, but seeing others we love suffer and not being able to do anything about it. Jose saw that I was really bothered by it, and he reminded me to say a prayer for her. I did, but that didn't stop my heart from hurting. The kind of love I have for this baby is beyond measure, and I know many moms feel that way. It is the most amazing and scary thing. Seeing her suffer, or even thinking about it literally causes me more pain than anything else.

Then I realized that's exactly what God did for us. He let his son suffer for us. Being a mom has opened my eyes to God's perfect love in a whole new way. That's part of what makes having that title, "mom", such a blessing...

Then I think about my mom; I understand her love for me more as well. She was so overprotective of me growing up, and I was always so annoyed by it. But now it makes more sense than ever :). My grandma has also been a worry-wort throughout my life...and I'm sure her mom was the same way. Mom, grandma and great-grandma. Such noble titles, and each one carries more beauty and responsibility than the last, at least I think so.

About a week ago, my great-grandma passed away; Mirabel's great-great grandma, if you can believe it! She was going on 99 years old this coming January. People said she was always kind to everyone, she had a warm heart and positive attitude toward life. She had 15 children and lost one of them. Many years ago, my grandmother also lost a child. These women have come face to face with the worst kind of pain, and yet they lived on loving and giving...and, thankfully, my grandmother is still here to share her heart with Mirabel. I only hope that when I'm their age, I'm half as loving and giving no matter what kind of loss I've faced...even if it's the loss of one of my children.

Of course, I'm not thinking about that right now...but walking out of the hospital I saw a mother pushing her child in a stroller. It wasn't a baby who was crying after a long day, not even a toddler who would rather be walking alongside his mother, but a child who had every reason to cry and who probably wanted to walk alongside his mom... but couldn't. He had cancer. Let me tell you, in that moment that mom was the strongest woman in the world.

Friday, August 20, 2010

The plane ride back to Boston...

Was an unbelievably easy one! Oh my goodness, I could not believe my ears...pure silence the whole 3.5 hours we were on the plane. Of course, the fact that all Mirabel wanted to do for 3/4 of the trip was eat and sleep did help...but I was shocked that she was awake during the landing/elevation changes and didn't shed a tear! The only thing she did to attract attention to herself was burp really loudly at the end of the flight :). She then proceeded to grin at everyone who laughed at her impressive belching abilities. My mom purchased some homeopathic pills to calm her and we gave her a few before the flight, I wonder if that had anything to do with it? Either way, I was a happy mommy. I was even surprised that she slept the whole night without a problem, the nap and change in scenery didn't seem to bother her.

My little jet setter is growing up so fast. Today, I placed her changing pad on the bed (because we don't have her changing table set up here yet) and for just a moment I turned away to grab her diaper/wipes. When I turned back, her head was hanging off the pad! Thankfully, the changing pad was on the middle of the bed. She literally scooted herself from the center of the changing pad to the very edge! I put her back and while I was changing her she kept doing it! Basically, while she's resting on her back, she digs her heels into each side of the changing pad and then pushes up, like frogs do when they jump from one place to the other. It's like a new form of crawling :D! I'm definitely gonna have to keep my eye on her at all times now, she hasn't done this while on the bed yet but I won't be surprised if she gives it a try's so funny because she had a smile on her face while she was doing it. She hates being still. In fact, sometimes she just cries because she wants us to walk around with her. I know she's gonna be one of those kiddos who runs all over the place...and I have a feeling, as soon as she starts to walk, she isn't gonna be so quiet on the airplane anymore ;).

Thursday, August 12, 2010


In my family, it's tradition for little girls to get their ears pierced. Believe me, it wasn't easy to watch :(, but she is happy now...and lookin' cute with her little studs :D.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

3 months and some change

Our summer here in Texas is quickly coming to an end. Next week, Jose drives to Boston while Mirabel and I wait for him to arrive (at our old apt.) and then we'll fly back to meet up with him. We're doing it that way because Mirabel still hates the car seat. And bottles too! But she is fact, she's started laughing out loud recently. She's also starting to put everything in her mouth, like the baby doll in the photo above (she isn't kissing it, she's trying to eat it :).

I'll say it again, time has FLOWN by! We're one quarter of the way to one more year until we move back to Texas, until we try to have another one. It really does go by faster the older you get...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Early Morning Feedings

You're sucking on your little fingers, all but two of them are curled under. Your tiny and quiet breath is my alarm clock--my heart has grown its own pair of ears, it seems. Nothing and no one else in the room stirs.

No cries just yet. You're bundled up comfortably in a pink blanket, my little caterpillar.

The streetlight creeps in, gently shedding light on the baby powder scented strands of fine hair that are starting to curl up on their own.

At my bedside, I can reach for you now. Before, you were a prayer away and I only saw you with my eyes closed.

It's 4 AM. My eyes feel tired and dry, almost sore (they open for you, anyway). They used to feel this way for other reasons.

I know joy now.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Mirabel's Halloween Costume

...just got it on Ebay, I know I'm a bit early but I thought it was so cute!


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